picorna is a microbiology reference. and yes, i am *that* nerdy

hola espanola, poorly neglected mindsay electronic journal:

when was the last time i typed something?  january i think?  wow

and the really sad thing is...there still isnt much to discuss

well.  i guess one major change has taken place since january:  i've started school again.  but i'm not working upon a degree in public health.  instead i'm  pursuing a masters in molecular medicine

and its not as glamorous as it sounds.  trust me

its a lot of tedious bullshit.  but on a molecular level.  which is all find and dandy but i want to explore exotic tropical diseases.  instead, i'm stuck in two hour lectures discussing the nitty gritty behind the mysterious trp, mal and ara operons

lucky me

although, parasitology is turning out to be both dull and grotesquely interesting at the same time.  today's lecture was particularly gruesome.  which, coincidentally, makes me very hot

just kidding.  but it does hold my interests a lot better than say....molecular biology of the gene (*yawn*)

speaking of yawning....i have shitloads of homework and crap to study

so...other than that, not much else is going on

but it's still great to be back :-P

but for anyone who watches cnn

isn't ed lavandera just the most adorable man you've ever seen?

i love healthy solid men.  no sticks and bones for me.  no sir

but ed is just.....so damn cute

he was reporting this morning on the pregnant marine...which is an incredibly sad story.  but i kept thinking to myself throughout his broadcast  'damn. i hope he's single.  he's cute'

i'm sorry.  that's totally inappropriate. i know

but i have a school girl crush on ed lavandera!

four months ago.  there was this guy.  we started dating. and things went from annoying to irritating to 'now, you're just pissing me the fuck off'

so.  we've decided that this whole dating thing....

yeah.  let's not do that anymore

and trust me.  i'm going to be alright.  but i told myself. no more dating. no relationships.  not now

and i have NO problems with that, either

but something is bothering me a bit.  my aunt made a comment over the holidays.  something along the lines of 'i came across someone of your old baby photos your mom sent.  you WERE such a pretty child.  now look at you'.  at first i blew it off, like most of the things she says to me. i dont like that lady

but then my nephew came over lately and i do have some old family photos sitting around. including some of me as a kid. and he said the exact same thing my aunt did

now i'm thinking 'what the fuck are you idiots trying to say?'

and people wonder why i'm always in defense mode

that amazes me

no more rants/complaints about work.  even though it's highly unlikely any co-worker would find my shitty little blog, it's still possible.  and while i'm still employed, i'd like to keep things civil

i'll wait until my 2 week notice to tell everyone to suck my ass

as a matter of fact.  no more complaining, period

it isn't good for the soul...or something like that

besides, i don't want to be labeled as the resident whiner.  that's not my style

but i don't know.  maybe this endeavour isn't for me.  i'm no writer.  i'm not creative.  all i know is science and math.  i'm a geek who cannot express herself effectively. or eloquently.  all of this is a struggle for me.  you won't believe how many journals i've purchased from borders....yet they remain just as blank as the day i bought them.  i can't do this

(and no, i am not complaining. i'm just stating a fact)

for some people....poetry and art and prose just comes so effortlessly

and i'm terribly jealous